John Lennon

I am a Beatles fan.
Like many I look up to the four members of this iconic and special group of 'artists'. The member that has seemed to have a hold of me is Mr John Lennon, but why? What do I know of this person? I know his music, and thats what I love. But like many others I have painted in my mind John to have been almost and angelic, and flawless. This was me being niieve. They say you should never meet your idols because they would disappoint you, thats because we think of them as we would like them to be, but the truth of it is, they are just human beings that have been put into the middle of the stage at the circus, and we must watch them till the show ends.
I have just finished reading Cynthia Lennon's book titled 'John'. Of course you expect that one cannot make a judgment of a person from someone's account, it maybe seen as bias. But Cynthia was sensitive in the way she wrote, of course in parts the tone relating to certain people could be seen as being angry, but that is understandable considering the situation.
I found the read incredibly interesting, and emerged in every situation that occurred. Considering what Cynthia went through in her rollercoaster of a life with John, she was mature and you could tell from the writing she was at peace with all that had happened.
As I mentioned previously I had painted a flawless image of John in my mind, and reading this book challenged my ideas of who he was as a person. But why should I have such a high expectation of him? He was just a normal guy with a normal guys problems.
I think from what I have read it is evident that John had deep underlying problems starting right in his early childhood (you don't need an expert to tell you that) and I feel sorry for him. Which is strange because usually when you hear of men cheating and abandoning there children (to a certain degree) your instant reaction is a negative one. I don't know why I feel a compassion for him, I don't suppose I ever will, I just can't for some reason despise the man, its a feeling that deep down he was a genuine good person, it was just unfortunate that in his life time he encountered too many negative things.
I didn't know much about Cynthia Lennon before I read her book, but I have a new found respect for her. I just hope that her and Yoko are decent towards each other for their sons sake, I just think that's how John deep down wanted everything to be,
A united family
A united world